October 2019: I just discovered that this show is available to listen to on the Hay House Archive- click here to go to the archive- or read the story below which I was prompted to share from my newsletter archive…
“We are each of us born into this lifetime with a store of talent and skill that we have been given to be used in the path of service. Each one of us has a contribution that we can make for the betterment of the whole. When we share these talents with an open heart, we are fulfilling the role that we chose for ourselves upon coming into this world.”
I read these words during my morning practice the other day (October 2016) and felt inspired to write to you about my experiences in finding my true path and then stepping forward into living it. The two parts are quite distinct and there’s a story to both of them- I want to share about the most current part- the stepping forward part.
Many of you know me from the Hay House radio show that I did with Michael J Chase last year- doing that show knowing that over 2 million people might hear my story was a huge leap for me. I had never done anything like it before and the fear that I had to overcome in order to do it felt epic. I had this seemingly irrational fear of “being seen” as if putting my head above the parapet as my True Self would mean I might die. Sounds extreme right? But that’s how I felt.
Perhaps you might be able to relate to this? If you are on your journey of Heroic probability then chances are you’ve met your metaphorical dragon (s) at the gate…the moment where your small self is screaming NO WAY and your higher Self knows you must keep going and face the fear in order to step into this new version of yourself. And here’s the thing- I’ve often found myself questioning at these moments in time when it’s REALLY, REALLY hard– perhaps I’m going the wrong way- surely it can’t be this tough, have I taken a wrong turn? Except deep down I KNOW.
So why do we think it’s going to be easy? Why did I think that once I had taken the epic journey to discover my true gifts and created a container for their expression (my business) that I was just going to sail off into the calm blue waters of my destiny looking fabulous with great hair and a gorgeous silk kaftan with no creases in it? Wishful thinking? The Ego’s way of keeping me small and distracting me from my Heroic probability? A tendency in New Age media to focus on the love & light without sharing the guts of what it took to reach the light? Who knows…but I know I’m not alone in this. Here’s what helps me to discern whether the challenges I am experiencing are just part of the Hero’s journey or whether the universe is attempting to course correct me…
1. Get quiet, dive under the turbulence of the external waves into the still waters of my inner knowing and LISTEN (remembering that the truth is often inconvenient!)
2. Fear mixed with excitement = keep going. Fear mixed with dread= reconsider.
3. Remember that the run up to the cliff & standing on the edge are the terrifying bit- once I've gone off the ledge and am in free fall (surrender) then the sense of ease comes in…
So back to the radio show- as soon as Michael introduced me and asked the first question I “jumped off the cliff” and in that moment a sense of ease, flow, calm and FUN swept over me. I loved doing that show with him and it was easy. But it wasn’t easy getting myself there and I had to be willing to let go of an old idea of myself- the one who could not share my truth in public.
Marianne Williamson once said “Honey, everyone wants to be reborn, but nobody wants to die”- how true that is. But each time we go off a cliff and leave behind the version of our self that was scared to jump we are in a sense reborn.
If you haven’t been off any cliffs lately or met any dragons perhaps it’s time to look at your next level of heroic probability- get in touch, I may be able to help.
And if you have, I salute you and I’d love to hear about it…